Thursday, April 10, 2008
k this is todays post eh.
myra tk gi skola, fil ponnn tk gi.
sialll nyeerrr nasebbb.
at first triply happy. bcos:
1. myra come to sch.
2. fil come to sch.
3. go sch with wool.
then tht no 1 and no 2 cncelled. haix.
pagi, migraine. mcm nk muntah, tapi da sampai toilet, tk jadi.
pi toilet sorang2, first time. in the middle of geog lesson plak tu.
couldnt concentrate much during geog. pfffft.
during eng rmdial, suddenly sugar rush.
nadhh sat beside me, then laugh like tooot.
hahah, miao miao da pandai buat lawak.
cute siol nadhirah! tk leh ang~.
but tooot lah, nadh and mirah went off earlier.
third language.
then teros i suddenly feel like crying.
mcm nk ikot pon aderr.
then lea balek ngan ridhwan tu, aku balek sorang.
got this feeling like a sec 1. >.<
oh. life is so boring. kan. abang kene saman $3000, pity him like fuck.
nanges oi aku. dunno where to get tht $3000.
he has been so damn unlucky these days. urgh.
how i wish i can feel the pain for him. then june, go ns.
got scdf. tsk. nanti rindu siol. and memang betol jgak,
kasih sayang seorang adik tak nampak.
wekkkkkk~!
and ah, I dont care lah now. no one does. so why bother kan.
ade kate life is beautiful if you know how to live it.
but tht's urs, totally different from mine.
no one knows anyway.
some ppl say must be grateful.
yah, I am grateful ENOUGH.
should I actually be THAT grateful?
nooo. k maybe yes. a teeny weeny bit.
but put urself in my shoes.
now I have to use my own money to buy everything I want.
INCLUDING SCHOOL STUFF.
and again, if u were me eh.
know how sad it would be having to work
just to get ur school bag, school shoes, specs, school uniform?
people tk tau, tkpe tkpe.
aku give up. idk where to go.
university? nahh. mama nak aku masok jc, like seha.
hahh. dream on. look at my science.
look at my english.
like fuck u know, mama.
i give up. i can only be optimistic when seha goes U or get a job to support me, or that fucking bastard get caught by police.
I cant stand it siol.
what's the point pon bilang korang. I dont understand myself.
sometimes. I dont know what to expect.
wth do I expect?
it doesnt make any diff to what I feel.
maybe it does, but just for a while.
and then it comes back. so, no point.
in fact, this is my last post.
okay. mmm, so the highest priority is my diary.
yah. understooded eh. so, no more blogging BONGOK.
whatever it is, I love you guys.
many2.
maybe I will come back, maybe I wont.
nta~. alah.
oh, official opening aku nyanyi tau tau tau.
:DD yippeeee.
kita jumpa lain kali ya, kawan2!
BYE KAWAN2! [ welcome to my life~! ]
black&white ; Thursday, April 10, 2008
