k this is todays post eh.
myra tk gi skola, fil ponnn tk gi.
sialll nyeerrr nasebbb.
at first triply happy. bcos:
1. myra come to sch.
2. fil come to sch.
3. go sch with wool.
then tht no 1 and no 2 cncelled. haix.
pagi, migraine. mcm nk muntah, tapi da sampai toilet, tk jadi.
pi toilet sorang2, first time. in the middle of geog lesson plak tu.
couldnt concentrate much during geog. pfffft.
during eng rmdial, suddenly sugar rush.
nadhh sat beside me, then laugh like tooot.
hahah, miao miao da pandai buat lawak.
cute siol nadhirah! tk leh ang~.
but tooot lah, nadh and mirah went off earlier.
third language.
then teros i suddenly feel like crying.
mcm nk ikot pon aderr.
then lea balek ngan ridhwan tu, aku balek sorang.
got this feeling like a sec 1. >.<
oh. life is so boring. kan. abang kene saman $3000, pity him like fuck.
nanges oi aku. dunno where to get tht $3000.
he has been so damn unlucky these days. urgh.
how i wish i can feel the pain for him. then june, go ns.
got scdf. tsk. nanti rindu siol. and memang betol jgak,
kasih sayang seorang adik tak nampak.
wekkkkkk~!
and ah, I dont care lah now. no one does. so why bother kan.
ade kate life is beautiful if you know how to live it.
but tht's urs, totally different from mine.
no one knows anyway.
some ppl say must be grateful.
yah, I am grateful ENOUGH.
should I actually be THAT grateful?
nooo. k maybe yes. a teeny weeny bit.
but put urself in my shoes.
now I have to use my own money to buy everything I want.
INCLUDING SCHOOL STUFF.
and again, if u were me eh.
know how sad it would be having to work
just to get ur school bag, school shoes, specs, school uniform?
people tk tau, tkpe tkpe.
aku give up. idk where to go.
university? nahh. mama nak aku masok jc, like seha.
hahh. dream on. look at my science.
look at my english.
like fuck u know, mama.
i give up. i can only be optimistic when seha goes U or get a job to support me, or that fucking bastard get caught by police.
I cant stand it siol.
what's the point pon bilang korang. I dont understand myself.
sometimes. I dont know what to expect.
wth do I expect?
it doesnt make any diff to what I feel.
maybe it does, but just for a while.
and then it comes back. so, no point.
in fact, this is my last post.
okay. mmm, so the highest priority is my diary.
yah. understooded eh. so, no more blogging BONGOK.
whatever it is, I love you guys.
many2.
maybe I will come back, maybe I wont.
nta~. alah.
oh, official opening aku nyanyi tau tau tau.
:DD yippeeee.
kita jumpa lain kali ya, kawan2!
BYE KAWAN2! [ welcome to my life~! ]
black&white ; Thursday, April 10, 2008
guess la sape nii.
emoo langit.
tengok uh! :(
guess ah tangan sape. menyebok jerr. hahahah.
nah, myra. aku blaja tau. mindmap aku lawa.
painting aku. lawa tk lawa tk? i love the blue part langit and that treee~
oooops.
nice place to emo
the best EM bud there ever will be.
sbsbs so racist.hahah.
osman sulaiman hide.
cute!
chairman tido waktu geog. hahaha.
it looks disgusting, innit? but it's niceeee~BOOOOOO! How do you doooooo?
These days, my mood very very random.
Sometimes got sugar rush, sometimes I feel like crying.
When I am high, I am high to the extreme.
But when I am emo, I become so very emo that I wished it would rain.
But emo-ing is damn fun.
And the rainy season is back. :DD
Better jiwang sessions, yea yea yea.
K lets talk and talk and talk. & let me tell you why I am pissed off.
Malay Dance,
Aku jadi secretary, Nadh jadi logistic manager.
:DD yayyyy!
And best part is, Zura jadi president!
The best bud to dance with, eye contact power, very romantic.
Ooops, qayyum marah tak? X).
1. But the first hour in dance was BULLSHIT.
They like to point out my mistakes so much.
Cb siollll! “NASYIBA, KHAYAL JE EH,” then “NASYIBA ASAL HARI NI BLURR?”.
“NASYIBA PIKIR PASAL APE NI, BILANG CEKGU EH,”.
Aku ape lagi, smue maen gasak je lar.
Tunjok muke attitude, but at least I tried my best.
The music all the way like the same, very damn susah nak memorise the steps.
Sec 4s are so lucky, da step down.
But in the first place, I was not daydreaming! I was listening, but susah nak ingat steps, tu je ape.
Tak happy pe. Aku bilang nenek aku baru tau.
Naseb baek Zura, Susu and Nadh ade, sudi dengar aku complain.
Zura pon slalu dicarikan pasal oleh si due ekor abang tu.
Tapi maseh tk puas, complain at Fil and Myra, after dance.
So damn pissed.
2. And friday, CIT should be the best CIT there ever will be, but some mofos just dont know the meaning of coorperating.
Let me explain.
COORPERATING – working with other people to achieve a good result for everyone involved.
The one Im hating so much to the core is YH.
Pffft. Son of a ______!
Everything wanna complain.
If he thinks his suggestions are better,
Go to hell urh. No, langsong tkde suggestions eh die tu.
Everything complain.
Ade lagi manusie cmni kt dunie.
Nadh pon pernah geram kat die,
Sampai nk tape his mouth gitu.
We took mcm 10mins to get the whole class to get their ass-es off the chairs and take a class photo.
Padahal lea da terpekik telolong. And sbsbs babes were enthu.
Like fuck like that.
Santosh so cute, “twotwo is like tooooot,”.
Tht is so true!
And nak ambek gambar, sume orang so tk smngt, grrr.
3. Early in the morning, I noticed some vandalism on my table.
Naek angen, naek hantu, naek body temperature aku.
Mesti budak skolah laen dtg and pakai my table.
Mcm nak curse that person, tapi tk baek plak kan.
So fed-up.
4. Oh yesterday, got back Geog test.
Just pass. :( baru sec 2 Geog da terok gini.
How will I ever be able to cope with upper sec nye geog?
OMD. God, why do I suck at Geog so much?
5. Math homework. Teacher asked to hand in on Friday.
Thursday night, spent 3 & a half hour to complete those stuff.
And on Friday, Mr Heng didnt ask for it.
And I do homework so slow! God, why aint I a Math genius?
6. Housework. Laundry is driving me so crazy I feel like flushing those laundry down the toilet bowl.
Sometimes I whine like small children right there in the toilet.
God, how long do I have to do all this?
And cos of housework, I tend to sleep right after those housework.
And forget about revising.
K the end of those things tht pissed me off. I am sorry if you find me bad-tempered this few days.
I dont know why, I get so fed-up easily now.
And itu ari kan, aku first time pekik kt Terminator tu. Hahaha.
They said, ey today got english remedial leh.
Cos I brought my bag along for lunch.
I am so sick of those mofos thinking we are gonna skip rmdials or summat.
Then I shouted urh, I KNOW!
Padan muke. After that, I felt like clapping my hands.
Good job, nasyiba. Keep it up.
Gini mcm baru Nasyiba. Tk bleh cute, mesti fierce.
Tau Fil tau.
April Fool, kenekan Amyraa due kali! Hahahahahah!
Die nak kenekan aku, tapi tk jadi. Padan mukerrr.
Fil kenekan april fool eh?
But it turned out to be somehow true, :/.
LIFE IS SO BORING. SCHOOL IS SO STUPID. FAMILY IS SO USELESS.
Yah yah, usually aku boleh tukar mode jadi optimistic.
But nowadays tk bleh.
I’m so sick of life, school.
There is only one great thing about life right now.
And it is FRIENDS.
These people mean a lot to me.
And know why I didnt tell anyone about this sickening feeling?
I am so sick of words. So dont come to me giving me advice.
It wont work. Not even Myra. Idk why.
And I cant get a grip of myself, losing control gitu.
And dont think you are alone.
I am sorry bestie, I am so caught up in stuff right now.
Mama asyik sakit je. Homework makin bertepek.
and why am I telling u this?
Bestie, sorry about Thursday tu.
I really cant find time to revise. Urgh.
And sometimes it takes you long gitu nak faham ape aku bebual ehk.
Like why Mama tak gi doctor, why aku tk buat mindmap untuk geog.
And everything is easier said than done, xcept for love. :)
Tau Fil. Haha.
Time is a bitch. Time is so jealous of happiness.
Ape aku merepek.
I am not happy.
Why am I telling you this?
It is bcos you are d one and only blog I have. -.-
And I dont hide my feelings from my blog, do I?
Oh, shutthefuckup.
Syg nowadays hantar aku balek je.
I feel so bad, da lame tk hantar die balek.
But at least she made my darah go downstairs a bit, by 37.25%.
On other days, boleh sampai 99.99%, bile my original mood okay uh.
Amyraa sent me that Meraung song.
I got so addicted to tht song.
And cos my walkman nye play mode tkde repeat,
I made a new playlist named LAGU NI JE…
And the only song I have in tht playlist is Meraung.
-.-
Langit pon suke emo ngan aku otw home kan.
Except langit dont cry, awan yang nanges.
Langit lah yang stress.
Haix. Addicted to sighing.
Dose eh Fil? Da habit urh, too bad.
K random eh. Myra, I am right.
Sometimes, it is better to be invisible.
Today Fil ajak kuar blaja, tapi malam. Nta mama kasi ke tk.
Well, I dont really think so ah.
See myra, kalau aku invisible, aku pgi tau. Confirm.
Got nothing to entertain me at home, except for this lousy com here.
And keyboard aku mcm da nak rosak. :( not the com nye keyboard lah.
Da largh. Tknk emo lagiiiii~.
Tk terbuke nanti pintu rezeki. Eh?
Maen sebat je aku ni. Bile mase sey Ustaz ckp cmtu.
Hahah.
Boring! Gaaah.
Drama on Tuesday, hancur musnah segalanya.
Terok sey, we mixed up the scenes. Like tooot like tht.
And tht was the assessment know.
Urgh.
Nah, Fil nak sngt kan.
Amek kau. I saved this poem in my com as a poem for totot you know.
Totot-hood mcm da basi jerrr. Why why why?
You added colours into my life.
And never let my strengths die.
You showered me with love and care
And you have got qualities so rare.
What I thought in the first place was wrong
Now I gotta learn to be strong.
Cos someday, I am gonna lose you
And that is the hardest thing to do.
Sometimes I wish I had never knew you
Cos since then, I never want to lose you
But now I realise that I am lucky
To have you here, to make me happy.
If time drifts us apart someday,
Let it be, come what may.
Let my tears tell you everything
I will miss you, I will just keep waiting.
I leave it to God, I told you before.
Until the day He opens the door.
The door that will lead me back to you
I will prove to you that my promises are true.
I will never forget the happiness we shared,
The moments together, the tears we shed.
But I guess the time has come now.
Life has to go on, no matter how.
He will see how I will struggle through each day
Without you here to lead the way.
I promise you I will be here, I will wait.
Even though the both of us are separate.
Oh ya. CONGRATS to lea and nadh for the RI competition.
Aku tk menang! Bullshit btol.
Then I sacrificed my 2nd last malay dance session with sec 4s,
Tapi tk menang ape2. 2nd last eh? Ke 3rd last. Nta la.
:(
Oh u know what, there is this malay penulisan assignment given to us uh.
Title: Kemalangan yang dahsyat
Mine is like those newspaper article type uh.
I put Wak (pakcik aku la tu) nye name in there, as the victim sume.
Hahahahah! And I got 48/50. aku bilang myra tht it is my pakcik.
Then I said, I wrote his name there cos I hate him.
Then she laugh. Hahahah.
Then in malay lesson, we learnt bout simili and metafora.
Metafora is like nak describe someone nye actions pakai bende lain selain manusie,
Like menyinga(singa) gitu.
Then aku teringatkan Fil, tk abes2 bunge bunge bunge.
So I whispered to Myra, MEMBUNGE. Hahahah.
Cool metafora kan.
And art, Myra draw bulan dan bintang kan kan kan?
Cute, her bulan and bintang look like those in nursery rhyme nye books.
Bubye lahhh. :D fake smile tau ni.
Okay let me try again. :D k, aku happy.
:D
[ you said you were waiting for me. I walked past and you didnt even notice I was there. ]
These days, my mood very very random.
Sometimes got sugar rush, sometimes I feel like crying.
When I am high, I am high to the extreme.
But when I am emo, I become so very emo that I wished it would rain.
But emo-ing is damn fun.
And the rainy season is back. :DD
Better jiwang sessions, yea yea yea.
K lets talk and talk and talk. & let me tell you why I am pissed off.
Malay Dance,
Aku jadi secretary, Nadh jadi logistic manager.
:DD yayyyy!
And best part is, Zura jadi president!
The best bud to dance with, eye contact power, very romantic.
Ooops, qayyum marah tak? X).
1. But the first hour in dance was BULLSHIT.
They like to point out my mistakes so much.
Cb siollll! “NASYIBA, KHAYAL JE EH,” then “NASYIBA ASAL HARI NI BLURR?”.
“NASYIBA PIKIR PASAL APE NI, BILANG CEKGU EH,”.
Aku ape lagi, smue maen gasak je lar.
Tunjok muke attitude, but at least I tried my best.
The music all the way like the same, very damn susah nak memorise the steps.
Sec 4s are so lucky, da step down.
But in the first place, I was not daydreaming! I was listening, but susah nak ingat steps, tu je ape.
Tak happy pe. Aku bilang nenek aku baru tau.
Naseb baek Zura, Susu and Nadh ade, sudi dengar aku complain.
Zura pon slalu dicarikan pasal oleh si due ekor abang tu.
Tapi maseh tk puas, complain at Fil and Myra, after dance.
So damn pissed.
2. And friday, CIT should be the best CIT there ever will be, but some mofos just dont know the meaning of coorperating.
Let me explain.
COORPERATING – working with other people to achieve a good result for everyone involved.
The one Im hating so much to the core is YH.
Pffft. Son of a ______!
Everything wanna complain.
If he thinks his suggestions are better,
Go to hell urh. No, langsong tkde suggestions eh die tu.
Everything complain.
Ade lagi manusie cmni kt dunie.
Nadh pon pernah geram kat die,
Sampai nk tape his mouth gitu.
We took mcm 10mins to get the whole class to get their ass-es off the chairs and take a class photo.
Padahal lea da terpekik telolong. And sbsbs babes were enthu.
Like fuck like that.
Santosh so cute, “twotwo is like tooooot,”.
Tht is so true!
And nak ambek gambar, sume orang so tk smngt, grrr.
3. Early in the morning, I noticed some vandalism on my table.
Naek angen, naek hantu, naek body temperature aku.
Mesti budak skolah laen dtg and pakai my table.
Mcm nak curse that person, tapi tk baek plak kan.
So fed-up.
4. Oh yesterday, got back Geog test.
Just pass. :( baru sec 2 Geog da terok gini.
How will I ever be able to cope with upper sec nye geog?
OMD. God, why do I suck at Geog so much?
5. Math homework. Teacher asked to hand in on Friday.
Thursday night, spent 3 & a half hour to complete those stuff.
And on Friday, Mr Heng didnt ask for it.
And I do homework so slow! God, why aint I a Math genius?
6. Housework. Laundry is driving me so crazy I feel like flushing those laundry down the toilet bowl.
Sometimes I whine like small children right there in the toilet.
God, how long do I have to do all this?
And cos of housework, I tend to sleep right after those housework.
And forget about revising.
K the end of those things tht pissed me off. I am sorry if you find me bad-tempered this few days.
I dont know why, I get so fed-up easily now.
And itu ari kan, aku first time pekik kt Terminator tu. Hahaha.
They said, ey today got english remedial leh.
Cos I brought my bag along for lunch.
I am so sick of those mofos thinking we are gonna skip rmdials or summat.
Then I shouted urh, I KNOW!
Padan muke. After that, I felt like clapping my hands.
Good job, nasyiba. Keep it up.
Gini mcm baru Nasyiba. Tk bleh cute, mesti fierce.
Tau Fil tau.
April Fool, kenekan Amyraa due kali! Hahahahahah!
Die nak kenekan aku, tapi tk jadi. Padan mukerrr.
Fil kenekan april fool eh?
But it turned out to be somehow true, :/.
LIFE IS SO BORING. SCHOOL IS SO STUPID. FAMILY IS SO USELESS.
Yah yah, usually aku boleh tukar mode jadi optimistic.
But nowadays tk bleh.
I’m so sick of life, school.
There is only one great thing about life right now.
And it is FRIENDS.
These people mean a lot to me.
And know why I didnt tell anyone about this sickening feeling?
I am so sick of words. So dont come to me giving me advice.
It wont work. Not even Myra. Idk why.
And I cant get a grip of myself, losing control gitu.
And dont think you are alone.
I am sorry bestie, I am so caught up in stuff right now.
Mama asyik sakit je. Homework makin bertepek.
and why am I telling u this?
Bestie, sorry about Thursday tu.
I really cant find time to revise. Urgh.
And sometimes it takes you long gitu nak faham ape aku bebual ehk.
Like why Mama tak gi doctor, why aku tk buat mindmap untuk geog.
And everything is easier said than done, xcept for love. :)
Tau Fil. Haha.
Time is a bitch. Time is so jealous of happiness.
Ape aku merepek.
I am not happy.
Why am I telling you this?
It is bcos you are d one and only blog I have. -.-
And I dont hide my feelings from my blog, do I?
Oh, shutthefuckup.
Syg nowadays hantar aku balek je.
I feel so bad, da lame tk hantar die balek.
But at least she made my darah go downstairs a bit, by 37.25%.
On other days, boleh sampai 99.99%, bile my original mood okay uh.
Amyraa sent me that Meraung song.
I got so addicted to tht song.
And cos my walkman nye play mode tkde repeat,
I made a new playlist named LAGU NI JE…
And the only song I have in tht playlist is Meraung.
-.-
Langit pon suke emo ngan aku otw home kan.
Except langit dont cry, awan yang nanges.
Langit lah yang stress.
Haix. Addicted to sighing.
Dose eh Fil? Da habit urh, too bad.
K random eh. Myra, I am right.
Sometimes, it is better to be invisible.
Today Fil ajak kuar blaja, tapi malam. Nta mama kasi ke tk.
Well, I dont really think so ah.
See myra, kalau aku invisible, aku pgi tau. Confirm.
Got nothing to entertain me at home, except for this lousy com here.
And keyboard aku mcm da nak rosak. :( not the com nye keyboard lah.
Da largh. Tknk emo lagiiiii~.
Tk terbuke nanti pintu rezeki. Eh?
Maen sebat je aku ni. Bile mase sey Ustaz ckp cmtu.
Hahah.
Boring! Gaaah.
Drama on Tuesday, hancur musnah segalanya.
Terok sey, we mixed up the scenes. Like tooot like tht.
And tht was the assessment know.
Urgh.
Nah, Fil nak sngt kan.
Amek kau. I saved this poem in my com as a poem for totot you know.
Totot-hood mcm da basi jerrr. Why why why?
You added colours into my life.
And never let my strengths die.
You showered me with love and care
And you have got qualities so rare.
What I thought in the first place was wrong
Now I gotta learn to be strong.
Cos someday, I am gonna lose you
And that is the hardest thing to do.
Sometimes I wish I had never knew you
Cos since then, I never want to lose you
But now I realise that I am lucky
To have you here, to make me happy.
If time drifts us apart someday,
Let it be, come what may.
Let my tears tell you everything
I will miss you, I will just keep waiting.
I leave it to God, I told you before.
Until the day He opens the door.
The door that will lead me back to you
I will prove to you that my promises are true.
I will never forget the happiness we shared,
The moments together, the tears we shed.
But I guess the time has come now.
Life has to go on, no matter how.
He will see how I will struggle through each day
Without you here to lead the way.
I promise you I will be here, I will wait.
Even though the both of us are separate.
Oh ya. CONGRATS to lea and nadh for the RI competition.
Aku tk menang! Bullshit btol.
Then I sacrificed my 2nd last malay dance session with sec 4s,
Tapi tk menang ape2. 2nd last eh? Ke 3rd last. Nta la.
:(
Oh u know what, there is this malay penulisan assignment given to us uh.
Title: Kemalangan yang dahsyat
Mine is like those newspaper article type uh.
I put Wak (pakcik aku la tu) nye name in there, as the victim sume.
Hahahahah! And I got 48/50. aku bilang myra tht it is my pakcik.
Then I said, I wrote his name there cos I hate him.
Then she laugh. Hahahah.
Then in malay lesson, we learnt bout simili and metafora.
Metafora is like nak describe someone nye actions pakai bende lain selain manusie,
Like menyinga(singa) gitu.
Then aku teringatkan Fil, tk abes2 bunge bunge bunge.
So I whispered to Myra, MEMBUNGE. Hahahah.
Cool metafora kan.
And art, Myra draw bulan dan bintang kan kan kan?
Cute, her bulan and bintang look like those in nursery rhyme nye books.
Bubye lahhh. :D fake smile tau ni.
Okay let me try again. :D k, aku happy.
:D
[ you said you were waiting for me. I walked past and you didnt even notice I was there. ]
black&white ; Thursday, April 10, 2008
