Friday, January 4, 2008
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what I'm supposed to say.
sorry or what.
I don't know.
I was just mad.
bcos things that I planned out for this year
totally didn't turn out right.
bestie,, forget everything I said.
you knew I'm gonna be sorry.
but on the other hand,,
you knew I was serious about this.
very serious.
and I was sure everything would turn out
the way I want it to be.
very sure.
but then all this shit came up
and everything seems wrong.
yes,, I'm getting good at forgetting her,,
can't you see ?
oh maybe you weren't there to see what
my reaction was when I saw her again.
and then someone forced all this to happen.
I didn't expect her to keep an eye on us.
I never did.
oh then what should I have done ?
when I say "forget everything",,
I mean forget the bad things
and also the good things.
everything.
I hope I never knew you.
forget our first meeting.
forget everything.
everything.
I hope it would come true.
but I know,, it never will.
we still have the past.
and history will last.
I know.
but what can I do to change the future ?
I don't know.
I really don't know.
what do you guys expect from me ?
I don't know.
gawwwd. help me,, I'm freaking out.
black&white ; Friday, January 04, 2008
