hahahah.
had some kinda fight with lollipop yesterday.
asked him why it's so hard to
contact him,, and he refused to answer.
all he always said was "hmmm".
like dumb like that.
some more super sensitive.
like hyper-sensitive.
mofo !
I hate US.
not United Stated ahh.
us. US. and now
I feel like letting you go.
Allah,, I'm so bad.
but he is too.
he's worse.
wanted to conference with them again ytd nite.
but there were too many people on the line.
so I was late.
so I couldnt join them.
saddddd.
then those kids asked me out.
but Atiqah didn't go so I didn't too.
if I go out,, I need at least 2 very close friends with me.
and I've just realised.
ohh. STUPID ME.
I've just realised that the 100mins free outgoing calls
is for one month usage.
not 2 years. asked Seha.
GOSH.
Allah,, give me the brain I used to have.
oh dude,, do you feel what I'm feeling ?
it's coming to me.
is it coming to you ?
I hope it is.
well,, I don't know why,,
as I think about it,,
I have a feeling,,
bahhhh.
forget this.
Nasyiba,, you're so evil.
and ytd had a long talk with siblings.
BIG talk.
about BIG things.
which are BIG problems.
ALLAH,, I'm begging you.
please.
I can't help this.
I can't stand this.
I'd rather be suffering knowing that the person who ruined my life is suffering too than to suffer alone.
its unfair.
you know it.
I've been wanting to take revenge.
I've been waiting for the moment when
You let us reveal all those evil deeds behind this man.
in front of the others.
in front of everyone.
let them know.
that all this while,, that man has been telling them
stupid grandma tales that don't make sense.
I hate him. you know I do.
I'm wishing,, oh how I wish,,
he'll get caught. all I want now is to see him
IN JAIL.
I mean,, him in jail,, not me in jail.
I truly do. I don't care.
and if I have to call 999,,
I will. just let me have the chance to do this.
Allah,, I'm seeking your permission.
I'm telling you. or else all this suffering won't end.
Allah,, I've accepted that you took my shining star
away from me some time ago.
but I thank you.
you took that shining star
and gave me a diamond.
this diamond,, was so special to me.
but Allah,, what if it stops shining ?
what else would you give me then ?
please Allah,, I beg you.
I want him in jail. I swear I do.
I don't wanna curse him
but he's making me do it.
please.
black&white ; Sunday, December 30, 2007
some things are just so hard to understand.
and to explain.
all this shit about friendships and secrets.
conflicts and misunderstanding.
some stuff you know,, but you're just not sure what it's all about.
when someone you know is obviously having problems,,
you try to be nice.
you ask "what's wrong?" and the person just answered. but
the answer doesn't seem satisfying.
there's something hidden. you knew it.
but the person seems to be avoiding you.
showing some things that confuse you.
it's either you are appreciated or
unwanted.
sometimes you're wrong.
you're just thinking negative.
but if you think about it properly,,
it hurts.
you wanna get over it.
you want an explaination of what happened.
you want to be sure
the person's not hiding anything from you.
because you trust her.
she's your only best friend.
you want her to trust you too.
you can only count on her.
she's the person.
because you two are best friends.
it's just so natural.
you two didn't have to act to be very best friends
or show others you really are.
because you already are.
without being told.
yes.
sometimes some small actions taken by someone who's very special to you may hurt you very deep inside.
on the flipside,, can it be true ?
yes. it can.
but is it true ?
and so it stays as a question mark.
THE END.
black&white ; Saturday, December 29, 2007
Cld u forgive your best friend for sleepin with your gf/bf?
- hah,, no way.
Have you ever seen a live bat?
- on tv got lah.
Is there anythin/anyone you hate?
- yesssssss.
Do you find it hard to forgive?
- sometimes,, when it really hurts.
Would you rather not drink alcohol or not sleep?
- stupid question.
Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
- tattoos,, nahh. piercings,, yes.
What's your favorite thing to do?
- blogging
Do you care if people talk smack about you?
- yes. idk why.
How much are you on the phone daily?
- nowadays,, alot.
Sorry, I forgot to ask your name.
- stupid lah you. I'm Nasyiba.
Are you in a good mood?
- nope
Do you think people will exist forever?
- nothing lasts forever,, idiot.
Do you believe in luck?
- not really.
Everything happens for a reason, right?
- maybe
Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
- bungee jump
Where is one place that you'd like to visit?
- perth,, australia
Anything you're looking forward to?
- 1st day of school only.
Do you have more or less than five best friends?
- less actually.
What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you?
- I would force her to tell me why.
Does the number 22 mean anything to you?
- yes. 22/11/07,, rebond-ed my hair.
Be honest, do you like people in general?
- sometimes
Did someone bother you today?
- YESSSSS.
What do you think about death?
- I wish mine is coming soon.
Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?
- YESSSSSSS.
Does someone love you?
- God.
Do you know anyone named Dave?
- nope.
Kissed anyone with the name starting with a R?
- not sure.
Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
- yep
Do you like sleeping naked?
- no way.
What color are the walls of your bedroom?
- white.
Do you think that Starbucks is expensive?
- I went there only once in my whole life. ok la
Are you named after a family member?
- nope. my name is unique
Are you taller than 5'6“?
- HUH?
Ever seen a dead body in real life?
- yup
Do you like the color blue?
- ok lah
How are you?
- do I look OK ?
Who was the last person to send you a text message?
- Amyraa
Who touched your butt last?
- me,, myself and I
Last restaurant you went to?
- KFC or Kopitiam. forgot la
What is the weather like today?
- ok lah.
What's e firz thing you wld do wif five million dollars?
- wah sey. SHOPPING !
What nationalities are you?
- malay. is that what you mean ?
How many hours did you sleep last night?
- I can't be bothered to count.
Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
- some bitch from ptps.
Have you ever been on your school's track team?
- nahh.
What clothes r u wearing?
- blue shirt and track pants.
If all of ur frens were going on a road trip, wld u go w them?
- donno lah.
Do you tink tt someone is thinkin abt u right now?
- nahh.
Does it annoy u wen someone says dey'll call u but dey nvr do?
- yupp.
Wat is e wallpaper on ur cell?
- spongebob =]
If u wld overdose frm a drug,wat wld it be?
- I only have panadol here.
black&white ; Friday, December 28, 2007
super. I'm super today.
super mad.
super bored.
super blank.
yesterday had a super fight with some super idiotic morons.
luckily those super friends of mine cheered me up.
conference-ed with them again.
super conversation.
super crap lah.
there's this super moment
they blurted something super stupid.
gah,, I don't know.
maybe it's really super stupid.
it can't be super real,, can it ?
what happens if it is super true ?
there's no super way.
so today didn't go for super sbsbs outing.
tsk.
I'm super sorry super babes.
cos things at this super shit home are super bad okay.
THE SUPER END.
black&white ; Friday, December 28, 2007
hello.
sbsbs outing tmrw. I donno lah I'm going anot.
watch movie at vivo agaaaiiiiiiiinnnnnn.
yesterday called those ptps kids
conference-ed for 1 hour.
cos someone kinda shoo-ed me. shalihin ah ni.
bahahahahahahah.
then chatted with taufiq.
then go sleep.
today,, oh shit,, Seha and me missed Tahu Nahu.
ey,, shiok tau !
surprisingly,, Seha loves it too.
ok bye !
black&white ; Thursday, December 27, 2007
I heard this song on tyra's talk show ! nice nice !
Just to think about it, I would do things that I would regret (tryna get you to)
To understand how I felt for you
I tried real hard time and time again
but I didn't know
my love wouldn't grow, I should've just let it go
But I stayed around thinking you would learn to love
[Chorus:]
And we both knew, you're wrong
There's nothing you can do, to ever undo what you've done to me
I loved you, deep in my heart I know you couldn't love me
But baby I just kept holding on, I should've let you go
Should've let you go [x3]
Couldn't do without it, I felt I needed you in my world (to get me by, by)
More and more I looked out for you, tried to play me like a fool so I
Didn't care that love wasn't there, had to just let it go
Couldn't stay around, thinking you would learn to love
[Chorus]
[Amina:]
And now I'm gone, plus I'd rather be alone
We both grown, lower your tone over the phone, aaight
I should've known, damn I should've known
It wouldn't last long, when you didn't come home some nights
And now I'm on, in the zone, handle business on my own
So respect the queen on the throne, aaight
Here's some strong advice, move on, that's life
You're wrong, I'm right, and I'm glad I let you go
[Chorus]
Don't know why you would ever lie to me so,
But I should've let you
Don't know why I could never let you go
Could've, should've, let you
Don't know why...
black&white ; Thursday, December 27, 2007
that's all of us.
emo ke qiss ?
3 headed ? shalihin extra !.jpg)
see us ?
sneaky !
maksiat !
wrong spelling ok.
wet tau tau tau.
she & her anak.went to watch I Am Legend at vivo.
so touching !!!
I cried you know !
went there with
Atiqah,,
Shalihin,,
Hairul,,
Taufiq,,
Andri
and
Afiq.
and guess what.
I caught Shalihin crying ! wahahahahahahahahahahhh !!!
accompanied Atiqah to window-shopping.
then went to Esprit.
and guess what.
I bumped into Abang's makwe.
so I shouted "Kak Ida!!".
then,, blah blah blah.
went to candy empire again.
Atiqah bought the cherry flavoured ooze toobz.
and gosh,, it sucks.
buy blue raspberry one okay.
and guess what again.
otw home,, we met Qistina in the mrt !
then Atiqah and the rest went to Jurong Point.
she was mad at me cos I wanted to go home first.
then she slapped me. -.- pain you know.
I & Qistina stopped at Clementi.
then I met Seha and went to
MUNCHY DONUTS !
YUMMMAYY.
my favourite one is the oreo one.
gawwwwd.
and oh shalihin owes me $10 okay. hahahahaha.
that popcorn.
ok da !
black&white ; Wednesday, December 26, 2007
merry xmas.
merry xmas.
merry xmas.
hohoho.
yesterday watched the polar express and ella enchanted.
so darn SHIOK !
I prefer ella enchanted uhhh.
there are some parts of polar express where they have this roller coaster ride. whoahhh. like real you know.
then ella enchanted. fuyyoooooh. I wanna watch again !
heehee.
ok I'm so lazy to blog today. chat ? anybody ?
Amyraa,, I'm waiting for you okay.
Bongok setia menanti. huhu. craps.
so now listen to music !
black&white ; Tuesday, December 25, 2007
yesterday chatted with 5 hyper people.
gosh. lollipop sampai marah.
and yesterday sms-ed Amyraa bout something,, and I diary-ed about it in the middle of the night. it's still bothering me btw.
Just look back and see
All those moments together
Sometimes I truly hope
We can really be friends forever
You raised my spirits often
Every morning I see you in school
I tried alot to get closer to you
And now I realise I'm such a fool
I dreamt about eternal friendships
I wish it's really true
But good things have to end
Like this connection between me and you
Friend,, you've been great to me
There's something special in you
Your mind,, your heart
and everything that you do
It's true when they say
There's never a right time to say goodbye
And people always wanna turn back time
To the moment they first said 'hi'
We don't know what lies ahead
I'll just hope you'll lead a happy life
And please,, never give up hope
Just don't let your strengths die
Every time I see you
There's something I wanna say
But it's just not time yet
I'll tell you the truth one day
Now I'll just pretend.
And say "I don't care now."
-------------------------------------------------------
My Immortal - Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
black&white ; Monday, December 24, 2007
I read this at some website.
it's a review of M. Nasir's concert held at esplanade
almost one month ago.
shit I should have gone for it. tsk.
It was a powerful M. Nasir performance that left ARNI ABDUL RAZAK breathless at the Esplanade in Singapore recently. COVERING concerts and showcases has always been one of my highlights as a journalist. It’s probably because I appreciate good music, especially if it is performed "live".But good live shows are hard to come by. While most singers try to concentrate so much on their singing during a concert, they often forget the importance of "connecting" with the crowd.
M. Nasir, however, is in a class of his own when it comes to concerts. Sure, he may have been labelled arrogant, snobbish and unfriendly at various times by the media but when he is on stage, he is something else altogether.M. Nasir is funny, vibrant and "alive" when performing.I am not ashamed to say that I laughed and cried with M. Nasir during his three-hour long Look and Feel — Get Close with M. Nasir concert held at the Esplanade in Singapore recently.
The packed hall fell silent as he belted out P. Ramlee’s Nak Dara Rindu (a song about pretty Singaporean girls hanging out at Tanjong Katong) and the makcik seated next to me went teary-eyed.
"He’s probably trying to tell us Singaporeans that he still feels very much at home when he’s here," she whispered and I couldn’t help but nod.
After all, Singapore-born M. Nasir did start his career in the music scene after obtaining a diploma from the Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts in 1978 before coming to Malaysia.
The multi-talented man (he is not only a singer/composer/lyricist/producer but is an actor and film director) had me in tears the when he sang Kepadamu Kekasih a song about the relationship between a man and his God. His beautiful deep voice that resonated through the hall made the song sound so haunting. [[ that's why I love him ! ]]
But I have to say that M. Nasir is not all dark and broody. He belted out a lot of uplifting nusantara tunes that night such as Andalusia, Mustika, Apokalips, Ada, Mentera Semerah Padi and Keroncong Untuk Ana that got the audience all charged up.
"Too bad you guys can’t get up and dance with me. Next time, I should do a standing concert so that everyone can dance with me. For now, you’ll just have to see me dance," he teased. And dance he did.
The thing about M. Nasir was that when he danced, it felt like he was in a musical world of his own. There were some youngsters shuffling in their seats, probably trying to restrain themselves from getting up and dancing (yes, he was that infectious).
The concert allowed his fans to understand him better, to know that he is not all arrogant and unapproachable. His rapport with the audience, was in fact, excellent.
"I’d like to turn this concert into a question-and-answer session," he said. "Ask me anything and I’ll answer."Lagipun, kita orang KL dah open-minded sekarang (Furthermore, we from KL are more open-minded these days)."
And the fans fired away. They asked about his family and his career (one even asked for his telephone number!) and he answered them candidly.
"When I make music, it’s always connected to what I feel. Though I admit that sometimes, my songs don’t make much sense even to me," he said cheekily.
"But there are songs that mean so much to me such as this next number.. a song that gave me the needed break into the music industry."
And he launched into Fantasia Bulan Madu, a song he wrote for rock group Search.The song was so beautifully sung (he hit the high notes perfectly!) that some people gave him a standing ovation.
The 1,500-crowd that night also got to watch M. Nasir perform his popular Satu Hari Di Hari Raya, Langgam Pak Dogo/Angguk-Angguk Geleng-Geleng (with Singaporean hip hop group Ahli Fiqir) and Dua Insan (a duet with Misha Omar).
Yes, I’ve been to quite some big-name concerts, but this was the best I’ve attended so far.
* M. Nasir’s latest album is due to be released next month and fans can also expect to see him in action at Planet Hollywood the same month.
da ! besok ade ptps reunion ! yayes !
black&white ; Friday, December 21, 2007
watched CHAH and the Tentang Bulan movie.
cool ahh that Tentang Bulan one. huhu.
and yayy. later Siti Nurhaliza will be singing
my favourite song !!!
that Suatu Masa one. YAY-NESS !
THE END.
black&white ; Thursday, December 20, 2007
just finished chatting with kasilah.
kasssss marah pat aku ye ?
seriously,, I didn't mean to look down on you or whatsoever.
I swear.
I'm trying to be nice here.
fierce lahh kasot ni. huhu.
GOD THIS IS BORING.
SANTA,, THIS IS BORING.
come to my house can ?
I'm grounded.
THE END.
black&white ; Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I found this in her room !
safiah,, me && saidah
former bestie && me
love !hello !
let's update.
17th december.
planned to meet Lea && bestie at jurong point.
and gawd I am so stupid that I overslept.
sorry guys. sorry !
18th december.
went to school for china dolls meeting.
then went back home and change clothes.
met Safiah at her house.
then went to vivo and talked many many.
she's got alot to say. huhu.
and guess what. I'm taller than her !
some more she said eish,, tinggi seyy kau.
teros aku kembang.
so Nadiah,, Filiana,, whoever who looked down on my height,,
just wait you. I'm catching up !
Amirah dngar ckp aku ok,, buat stretching every day. serious.
and we also talked about ptps kids.
I heard some of them started puffing olradi.
at first I couldn't believe it. budak2 masjid oi !
they go for madrasah some more. huhu.
then I came home late. I told Mama I would be home by 7.
and I reached home at 7.20. then she turned her siren on again.
steewwwpid. so yeah,, I'm grounded. tsk.
btw,, I changed my tagboard olradi.
my cbox got something wrong. stupid.
and and lagu mentera semerah padi is very the best you know !
huhu.
THE END.
black&white ; Wednesday, December 19, 2007
this is a poem I managed to compose.
but mm it seems a bit ot of point right ?
umm.
Maybe the stars in the sky
Or maybe just the moon
Would look at me and smile
Things would be fine soon
Maybe after years
Or maybe just some time
Someone would wipe my tears
Every good thing would be mine
Maybe she would think twice
Or maybe she would change
Maybe he would apologise
And promise to stay the same
Maybe far away
Or maybe real nearby
He’s singing by the bay
She’s baking blueberry pie
Maybe a doctor
Or maybe a teacher
No one knows my future
Maybe happy forever
Maybe the rainbows
Or maybe the sun
Would take away my sorrows
And life would be so much fun
Maybe one morning
When I wake up
There would be no more crying
And everything would cheer me up
Maybe someday
Or maybe never
They would find a way
To live together
Maybe someday
Or maybe never
I would find a way
To a bright future
black&white ; Sunday, December 16, 2007
today went to Sembawang for a wedding ceremony.
oh wells,, actually I went there just to have GOOD FOOD. right Seha ?
seriously. everything else was such a bore.
Mama asked me to sing karaoke there,, then I sticked out my tongue and said,, ingat free kapa ? [ you think it's free is it ? ]
oh gosh. I'm starting to miss school.
oh today got one bad news.
tsk
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the blue school bag that I've been using is gone,, R.I.P. lah hor.
no la. Mama lahh ni !
oh I actually feel like saying vulgarities. many many many dedicated to her.
if I sent the bag to a laundry shop at least I could make a complaint.
at home cannot one. TSK. BAD LAUNDRY SERVICE !
while Mama was hanging that bag outside for it to dry,, she suddenly lost her grip and BOOOOOOOOOOOSH. the bag fell. some more my house is on the 12th floor.
and then she went down to check. and it's gone. forever.
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stupid lahh.
some more inconsiderate residents.
that bag was bought using money you know !
ours !
like wtf !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I cried. yesss I did.
look what the residents did.
STUPID CLEMENTI RESIDENTS !
gth ! aku tak halalkan kau pakai bag tu,,
aku sumpah kau,, sumpah ape ehk ?
sumpah kau tk kan bahagie ngan bag tu !
aku sumpah kau akan hilang something that's really valuable !
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !
stupid clementi residents.
stupid clementi residents.
so evil.
so BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
so cruel.
so fucking evil.
so stupid.
so tamak.
so .. babiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!
u mf ah dumbass.
why did you take that bag !
I still can use for next year you know !
you idiot asshole.
THE END !!!!!!
black&white ; Sunday, December 16, 2007
whoots. I never wanna do it again.
forget it. now we're nothing but a dead connection.
what's up ? ARGH bongok diam !
watching ASIAN IDOL rite now.
jaclyn victor rocks lahh can.
but sometimes it's just not fair.
India's the biggest country lahh.
and Singapore is the smallest.
but if I were to vote,, I would vote either for Jaclyn Victor,,
or Mau. but I prefer Jaclyn Victor lahh.
I seriously think she should be the next siti nurhaliza.
whoooots.
and Abhijeet's name is like so cute.
ABHIIIIIJEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET !
HAHAH. craps.
oh Mama had just opened the mailbox and
jeng jeng jeng,, she said I got $150 voucher for progress award.
like wtf,, the MP doesn't know how bad I am in studies this year lahh.
some more I dropped lah can. don't make me kembang. then I'll drop even more.
but yeah maybe rezeki kan,, ALHAMDULILLAH. chey. mcm alim gitu.
ok bubye.
black&white ; Sunday, December 16, 2007
