Wednesday, October 3, 2007
yesterday i went to hougang. my aunt's place. ok la. my mum started lecturing about me winning the css juara thing,, and then my face turned red. haha. maloooo lah. then my makciks and pakciks started giving me alot of advice. they had too much faith in me. and now i'm scared. WHAT IF I FAIL TO SUCCEED AND SUCCEED TO FAIL in future?? ( idea by today's birthday girl,, verlyn ) hah. i am really afraid. they believe i'll be a successful one in future. even my makcik wanted me to be a singer. oush. shadap lah. now my academic results are going down. shit. how how how?
k now it's IT period. oush shiok shiok! haha. i loike! and people,, malay ones lah,, listen to gerhana ska cinta's song!!! senyuman ragamu,, very noice!
craps.
oh and on monday ayah called. the first one ade stupid silence. i said hello hello but no one answered. then the second one mama picked up. then he said, "nor,, panggel adek". then mama called me.
ayah: syiba? ( i kept really quiet ) syiba! syiba ni ayah jgn letak..
then his voice went off. tears were about to burst out of the corner of my eyes. oush. this year's hari raya,, like the last 5 years' hari raya,, i won't be meeting ayah. *sob sob*.
k toodles. dada. bye bye. bubye. bye. bai. whatever. craps.
[[behind the silence,, the tears]]
black&white ; Wednesday, October 03, 2007